Official Sony VAIO F Series i5/i7 owners thread *part 4*

Well I think its pointless. Firstly, when I'm mixing I often use a professional reference track and cycle through a whole range of soundsystems, some good, some bad and 1 very bad. Thats because I'm trying to make sure my music sounds good for people that aren't listening on spectacular soundsystems. Many people in the industry use secondary and tertiary references to ensure their music 'translates' well from the bog standard ipod earphones to crazy multi thousand dollar hifi systems.

What I'm saying is that it doesn't make sense to think of recorded music as having a 'true' intended version. I monitor with multiple soundsystems precisely because some exaggerate certain things more than others. Some flatter and some are very unflattering but the point is that it helps me to notice little things I wasn't necessarily aware of.

No. Studio monitors are just desktop speakers, usually designed to sit on a meter bridge and designed to be listened to in the 'near field' which is anything up to about 3 metres.

Many of them tend to be designed a certain way that kind of shows that it was designed for a meter bridge. i.e. the power switch is on the back of the unit, not on the front since you can't lean that far over an SSL console anyway. Some don't even have volume controls either because you are expected to use the master bus gain controls on your console instead.

Otherwise they are just near field speakers that are calibrated so as to have a frequency response which is as close to linear as possible across the ideal range of human hearing (approximately 20hz to 20,000khz).

This is typically done with a calibrated omni mic where the listener should ideally be seated in a specially treated room (with no reflective surfaces), with pink noise (equal signal energy in all octave bands) playing through both speakers at roughly 83dB SPL (see fletcher munson curve for why its around 83dB).

Now theres alot of marketing speak and alot of talk about monitors being flat from x hz to y khz at +/- 0.1dB but most of that doesn't tell you much about the speaker or whether it will sound good. For a start, your own room plays a massive influence on what you hear - in terms of reverberation, in terms of having problems such as setting up standing waves that intermitently change the sound depending on where you are situated in the room. Have you ever cleared everything out of your room? Moved house? Have you ever noticed how your own voice carries an echo in an empty room? Have you ever sung in the shower and noticed that your voice sounds quite different when you are surrounded by tiling (reflective surfaces)? Have you ever used a powerful soundsystem in a small room and noticed that bass is exaggerated if you back up rear ported speakers into corners? Have you ever noticed that you can walk around your room and the bass will disappear intermittently as you move in and out of null zones?

The human ear itself is not linear either and is generally more sensitive in the regions of the frequency spectrum that are used for speach intelligiblity. Furthermore, everyone's hearing degrades in different ways and at different rates over the course of their life. Then there is the non linearity of every sound generating electronic device you have in your home. It just goes on.

The point I guess is that everyone in and out of the industry is trying to make music for your personal enjoyment. So what you should be doing is enjoying it in any way you can. If using dynamics/stereo enhancers helps you to do so then use them. If not then don't.

 

Guys, if you want to talk about all the details of possible settings for SSD's, maybe you should go to some SSD's optimization threads?

I don't mind posts here & there on the subject or big posts with lots of details about one's SSD's OS optimized settings on his F but please do not overtake the general F owner's thread with a ton of small posts like this one.

Just a personal opinion.

 

Willscary, I have read your posts concerning this issue before and I really appreciate you restating the case for your setting preferences. I'm coming to the conclusion the Sony provided Toshiba SSD in my laptop has TRIM capabilities but firmware is not set to perform in such a manner. Unless there is a firmware update, and I've read in one place this drive can't even perform a firmware flash ( who knows?). So, I am also siding on the 'give a minute amount of performance loss to achieve greater life expectancy' line of thinking.

 

All things will pass. From time to time, subjects take us into the peripherals of the machine, and I think this will become the nature of this tread as we are into part 4 now- with god knows how many posts. How much more is there to talk about without it being a complete retread? While this may not apply to you, this is important, and my SSD did come with my computer.

 

I mean posts with meat and potatoes like Willscary's are awesome. If one wants to read 6,000+ small posts about SSD & nitpick about this & that maybe one could check here: SSD Thread (Benchmarks, Brands, News, and Advice).

 

I understand you Joe, but also our F-vaios is special in combination of its users and drives. I will i could be a better poster in future.

On topic: Those who know my vaio giving me noise through a stereosystem. LISTEN TO THIS!! I get the same noise when the F12 is NOT CONNECTED to the stereo. The noise disappears when the AC adapter is removed or the vaio is turned off.

Is this disturbance spreading through the electrical wiring. Desktop PC, laptop, Stereo, 2 screens, alot of accesories, printer, lamps is connected on a Belkin surgemaster that is 4 years old. One of these Surgemasters have broken before, but it is few oulets that was disabled.

The house and its wiring is only 3 years old, and have never giving me trouble before, I think.

 

Whilst the post itself may not have appeared as "meat and potatoes" to you, the content of the site was very relevant to the SSD discussion at hand. It contains information that was supplmental to Willscary's informative firsthand account.

While I'm sure there is a line that can be drawn over what is and is not of VAIO F relevance... who gets to draw it?

 

i ordered my CTO F12 from the Sony Style site (USA) on the 21st and my order status still shows as "processing". Is something wrong here?

 

Yes, the guy dropped it on the floor just as he was putting it in the shipping box & they had to send it to the repair department!

 

What software do I need to play blu rays after a clean install?

 

The Corel WinDVD that you can install through VAIO Care works fine. It's what I've been using for blu-rays.

 

Nice post as well as the follow-up, thanks. +1 for your rep.

I don't use any of Realtek's tweaks, only use on occasion enhancements in my media player.

 

Thanks to Joe's reply, I read your post.

I tend to skim past many posts like this, but upon reading it, I agree wholeheartedly. We can not possibly recreate the exact studio frequency response and ambiance, the same concert hall, stadium or broadway stage in our own homes, and we certainly can't capture them on a bit robbing MP3 player.

My computer monitors are all calibrated using a cheap and fairly effective Huey Pro program. My TVs are calibrated using Avia. These calibrations get me quite close to how video SHOULD look. Colors are very natural, brightness and contrast are close to what they should be and sharpness, color and hue are much better than uncalibrated sets.

Music is a different beast. Each speaker, even studio speakers, introduce colorations of the sound. Some are warmer, others are brighter. Some are honky, stressing the midrange. Some are very muddy and have a shallow depth of sound. Some have a superb soundstage.

A person can spend a lot of money hoping for the perfect speaker, but even if your speaker has deep bass, smooth highs, a solid midrange, a neutral overall sound and a wide and deep soundstage that allows you to pinpoint each and every instrument's exact location, you will most likely install them into a room that will color the sound and collapse the soundstage.

My theater room is mathematically perfect for accoustics. My speaker placement was done by painstakingly sitting in each seat and running mirrors over all walls, the floor and the ceiling in order to find and diffuse reflection points. My speakers are very flat, neutral and open and exhibit a very large soundstage.

With all of this going for me, I Still use a mixture of 20 band FULLY PARAMETRIC equalizers and 30 band digital graphic EQs in order to get my sound to where I like it. I created CDs that produce a single Hz sine wave tone for every full frequency between 10Hz and 160 Hz, a tone every 10Hz from 160Hz-2500Hz and a tone every 100Hz from 2500Hz to 20,000Hz.

I take these 560test tones, which are all recorded at exactly the same level, and play them, one at a time, through each speaker in my system. I use a Rat Shack SPL meter to record their sound level at each of the 4 seating locations. I then average them and plot a graph. I then apply a correction curve (the SPL meter is not perfect...correction data can be found online) and equalize each speaker individually. In the case of my subwoofer and my front main and center speakers, I use a 20 band fully parametric EQ to flatten the room response. I correct each peak or valley in the response curve by setting center frequency, bandwidth and gain for each peak or null. After the major 5-6 problems are corrected, I re-record my data with the EQ "in" and find new areas to correct. I do this until all 20 channels are used. Using this method, I EQ my front left, center, right and subwoofer speakers to within +/- .5dB in-room response from 16-20,000Hz. My rear speakers are simply EQed in the same way, but with a much simpler 30 band digital graphic EQ.

This process, especially the portion where I set the parametric EQs, is painstakingly long. It takes me a week to get them all set.

In the end, is my system reproducing sound exactly as the recording engineer heard it? NOPE!!!!! However, my sytem is equalized so that the CD source, the preamp, the power amps (the cables...if you believe in that stuff), the speakers and the room are all neutral within the limits of my abilities. This is the best I can ever hope to accomplish!

Still, even with all of this work, poor recordings still sound like crap and most recordings simply sound OK to good. There are also recordings, however, that blow me away. Dire Straits "Brothers In Arms" and The Eagles "Hell Freezes Over" both sound like I am "there in the studio". Most movies are awesome. My brother-in-law once looked out the window looking for a helicopter during the movie "We Were Soldiers" because he was sure that a "flight for Life" helicopter was landing in the street AND HIS PANTS LEGS WERE MOVING AGAINST HIS LEGS FROM THE BASS!!!

After the rant...my point is...don't EVER expect a laptop or a small pair of desktop speakers to EVER produce sound that replicates what the sound engineer heard. It simply ain't gonna happen!

Props to Hayte for his original response.

 

Man, I've been f***ing around for more that one hour trying to fix my Homegroup that was working fine the last time I booted my old desktop.

What drives me nuts is that trying to reset the whole thing by leaving the Homegroup on both computers, now both want to create their own homegroup & neither offers the option to JOIN the other's group.

In the mix is Norton's "Smart" firewall, trust & the IPv6 cr@p which blackviper.com (BTW thanks Fishon for reminding me) recommends disabling in services for homegroups. Not done yet.

The kickers:

- laptop can see public folders of PC but not the opposite
- Network maps created by both Win 7 are different
- laptop can connect to the web but not PC while laptop map says it's doing so via the PC!

Just for laugh:



I love the Broadcom ASDL in the air as I have only one cheap Chinese box (Tenda D840R) provided by the local ISP.

 

Sony VPCF1290X, or Lenovo W510?

I would appreciate your help with my decision on which laptop to buy. I've narrowed it down to the Sony VPCF 1290X, or the Lenovo W510. They seem to have comparable specs (I'll go with the 840 QM processor on the Sony or the 820 QM Processor on the Lenovo). I will load them with the best that each has to offer, (except for paying $550 more to go from 820 to 920QM on the processor). There are a few minor differences such as no HDMI output and no Blu-ray for the Lenovo, but I've owned Lenovo's for years, and I think their synaptics touchpad is better, and I'm used to Lenovo. The HD screens have the same 1920 x 12000 resolution.

But setting aside those smaller preferences (which depend on my particular use), which is the better machine? I am on the road all the time, so I need a machine that can hold up to that beating. I know Lenovo has that reputation, but perhaps Sony is just as much a road warrior? And which is more reliable? I don't game, and I'm not using CAD. I just run a lot of programs at the same time, plus video, and I want a machine that's as fast as possible and as reliable as possible.

Your opinions are very much appreciated.

 

From your usage description, 820 or 840 CPU upgrade is overkill IMO & I doubt you would ever need more than 6GB of memory. Check benchmarks on the web for 720 or 740, they are no slouch. Money for speed would be better spent on an SSD which also makes the machine a lot less sensitive to shocks & mistreatment.

Lenovo_W510: more expensive vs. F with somewhat similar specs, slower memory, display smaller by .8" but better because wider color space representation (almost Adobe RGB) & anti glare vs. US F which is glossy & sRGB. EU F Premium 1080p is 100% Adobe RGB color space coverage & anti glare.

BTW, both are NOT 1920 x 1200 but 1920 x 1080 (Full HD) so you will loose some headroom compared to laptops made a few years ago.

If no "HDMI output and no Blu-ray" is minor for you and you like the brand, why not stick with Lenovo?

 

I can't believe that all the wizards & troubleshooters missed that & why would ICS mess up things in the first place anyway. When ASDL went down today, I created a dial-up connection on the PC & shared the internet connection. ASDL is back but could not fix the network. By simply disabling the goddam internet sharing, everything was fixed by magic & maps on both computers are now identical with full access to the other's documents:

 

Glad you got it figured out!

 

Thanks & now I need to buy asap a cheap USB dial up modem on Fleabay (less than $10 shipped) or an Expresscard/34.

Edit: I ordered the wrong part, see this follow-up: F Series USB Modem & Keyboard Messed Up.

 

Will this one do?

USB 2.0 56K Ethernet Dial up voice Fax Data Modem V.92 - eBay (item 160462357664 end time Aug-28-10 19:29:36 PDT)

It was on the link you posted. Under $10 shipped and worldwide.

 

Does the newer F12 power brick have a status LED on the power jack? I know it probably isn't going to happen.. it'd be nice though!

 

An update:

I tried Joe's Clean Install guide again, because I knew that I could get better boottimes
Vaio F Series Windows 7 64-bit Clean Install Using OEM Recovery Discs (I hate how this forum kills an url)
Now VAIO Care reports: first boot 40 seconds, average boot 44 seconds.

When you install a Momentus XT get the latest firmware and install the Intel Rapid Storage driver.
For more information see: http://forum.notebookreview.com/har...e-momentus-xt-hybrid-hdd-w-built-4gb-ssd.html

Now for Joe’s guide:

For the EU F11 there are no “Sony Notebook Utilities”, but you can download them individually (Battery Checker/Setting Utility Series/VAIO Event Service/VAIO Control Center/VAIO Power Management).

On the support site for the EU F11 there is no VAIO Location Utility and like Joe mentioned no full version of VAIO Care.
They are however on the site for a similar F12.
I installed VAIO Care from the recovery discs.

I have now one problem and that is that not the complete VAIO Hardware Diagnostics is included and I could not find that tool on the EU Support site for F11 or F12.

The SmartWi Connection Utility is called VAIO Smart Network in the European F11.

I installed WinDVD BD for VAIO and VAIO Data Restore Tool from the recovery disc.

I could not reinstall because they were not on the recovery discs:
Magic-i Visual Effects
VAIO Hardware Diagnostics
VAIO Peripherals Metadata
Arcsoft Webcam Companion 3
VAIO Help and support
The original VAIO themes.

The themes you can recreate yourself because the VAIO wallpapers are on the recovery discs.

Joe's guide works great on an European F11, you loose some programs, but now my F11 is really, really, really, really fast.

By the way I installed the US Backlit keyboard ordered on Ebay and now love typing in the dark

 

Thanks for the feedback.

If you boot 3-4 times in a row, your XT should get faster & faster by learning.

If some value added software are missing from your recovery discs (Arcsoft Webcam Companion 3 & Magic-i Visual Effects in your case) then that's not normal and you should call/write to Sony_support so they could fix the problem as that is the reason d'etre of said recovery discs: return the F to factory state which includes those.

Diagnostics was not a standalone on my F. Maybe you have it already anyway. Check Vaio_Care > Troubleshooting > Hardware:



More later, got to run.

 

Mine was cheaper: $8.88 & free shipping worldwide. Free (or cheap) shipping is better as seller has to refund $8.88 in case of a problem while if it's $1 + $7.88 shipping, you eat the S&H.

I'll post some feedback in 2 to 6 weeks.

Edit: The first one I ordered did not work on my Vaio_F but did work on an old XP laptop. My bad: in the description it did NOT say that Windows 7 was supported. Make sure it does as they may look the same on the outside but they have different chip inside. If the seller has a reputation of 99% & up & it says Win 7 supported, it probably does.

 

This is also missing on my discs. I didn't needed it so I didn't contacted Sony.

Joe, I see that you are still using the old Vaio Care. There is a new version (6.1.2.07220) available, you can get it on the esupport site, Dutch site.
In the new version the troubleshoot of your hardware is situated under Diagnose.

 

Jef, if I ask a Dutch girl for a date & she replies "Akkoord", is that good or bad?

Thanks for the pointer! +1 for your rep. (Come on cheapo/lazy, click on the weird icon if you find a post helpful). Following your link, this is very interesting:

And searching the web w/ VAIO_Care 6.1.2.07220, here:

For those who want more info about 6, check also Vaio_Care 6 overview here:



I will create a restore point & after that try it on my_F11. BTW Vaio_Care 6 is not offered (yet) on the esupport page for my specific model.

Edit:: Extend even more your battery life & kill an other process to make your F even snappier! Just found this: How to disable the VAIO_Care application and the kicker:

Note: if you dunno how to maintain your F manually, leave that to automatic. Besides Vaio_Care I also have Vaio_Care Service in my Task Scheduler. Must research the latter for what it does exactly. Edit 2: I think it's related to Event Service which is necessary for the special buttons & F keys to work properly. Will update this post if I find more info.

If set to manual, you loose this:

*****

Recovery Discs Stuff Missing?

Are you saying that Gandalf & you had some value added software in your OEM OS and some of those are not available from Vaio_Care > Recovery & Restore > Select Programs or Drivers to reinstall?



If so then that would be a step to add to the Vaio_F Series Custom OEM clean install guide: before doing it, check if all the software you want are available on the disc #1. A workaround could be to extract the .mod files as explained in the article.

I would call your Sony_support & ask for a link to download them or they should say which .mod to extract or send a complete set of recovery discs.

One possibility is that if someone burns the recovery discs from an F that does not have the full OEM recovery partition because of formatting or installing a generic Win 7 OS, then some stuff will be missing.

Could other people insert their recovery disc #1 & report if some value added software is missing? Could you check also via ASSIST?

 

That's very good but I like Belgian girls more.

Thank you!

I already checked in Vaio Care and also there it's missing.

 

Just curious, did you do a fresh install or the fresh start option? Because the fans on my F12 seem to always be running pretty high and it is louder then any laptop i've ever seen. Also have you ever noticed the high pitched ringing tone that comes and goes from the fan? You can really only hear it in a quiet room but it does get quite annoying. Sony support was going to send a contracted technician (who was like 100 miles away!) to my house to fix it, but when I talked to him on the phone he said Sony told him to replace the entire motherboard and all, so i told him forget it and canceled the service. I'm hoping it goes away on its own

 

I like Belgian girls too as I spent about 2 months in Belgium but if they speak French, I don't need any tips. Loved especially Leuven, did not visit Antwerp yet. Your country is on my list of places I want to visit again because the people & the architecture are so nice (and the beer!) but then I have this long list of places I did not see yet. Life is too goddam short IMO.

To make this post F relevant: Could you list the programs missing? Note that I updated the screen capture, if you select all programs & drivers, I have 45 & 17 respectively.

 

do you guys have any informative benchmarks on the laptop cooler?

 

Joe Vaio Care Recovery & Restore looks very different on my F.

Also coming back to the hardware diagnostics... it's there but not completely, only 2 options.

I created my recovery discs right after I got my F, because of the wise words you spoke in the first ownsers thread

The missing files must be on the recovery discs because when I do a factory reinstall all those program and the crapware are back

 

This was discussed to death. Go to page 1, post 1 & click on previous threads links. There, use the Search this Thread feature top right of the pages: fan noise. You can also do a general search on the very top of this page. Try: Vaio_F Series fan noise.

I ran a battery of tests yesterday (including battery life optimization tests ) & can make my F fan run more or less 700 rpm faster or slower @ idle depending on cr@p running in the background & +/- 500 rpm just by selecting or NOT thermal strategy > Performance or by selecting the Performance power plan which prevents the CPU to go in the power saving LFM mode when doing light taks. I'm preparing a long post on how to make your F noisier, it will take a couple of days. Meanwhile as a teaser:



"Because the fans on my F12 seem to always be running pretty high and it is louder then any laptop i've ever seen" - Did you ever saw/heard an other powerful quad core i7 laptop? With great power comes great heat & fan work. BTW there is only 1 fan to do all the cooling needs.

 

Actually the fans stopped working and I had to send it back for repair or replacement. They were really nice about it and paid for shipping. Should have it back in a few weeks. The fans can be set really high if one wishes ( I never set it that high), so any benchmarking with a good fan should be similar.

 

Hi vtecvaio. Judging from everything I've read here since I joined the forum around 5 months ago, I am considerably less knowledgeable about computers than most of you.....so no, I did not do a clean install and I did not order a fresh start unit because the Costco models are all sold everything pre-installed and I did not have that option. There has been much discussed here about clean installs and what software to keep or not keep so after I get used to this notebook I plan to either do a clean install or start disabling or uninstalling the things I won't need or use. That said, I do not have any of the issues you ask about and as I stated, I use my notebook in a very quiet home environment. Maybe you should possibly reconsider changing the motherboard, although I am probably the last person here that you should listen to for technical advice. After all, I came here because it is I who needs the advice!

 

It looks the same as yours over here but I have more option at the diagnose submenu.

Like Gandalf said, my software recovery submenu looks completely different and I can't count them automatically, It looks the same as Gandalf's screenshot. But I have more options at the diagnose submenu. I have to via Vaio recovery and I have +/- 60 programs (Arcsoft is missing) and 15 drivers.

 

I believe I have the same NZXT CRYO-001B RTL notebook cooler as Fishon and I love it. It has 3 fans and infinite fan speed control. I have it set somewhere near the middle of the range and I can hear a soft whoosh of air movement. If I move it all the way high, the air movement sound gets louder and there is also a soft and low hum. Neither is loud enough to be objectionable to me. Since I've had the F12 on this cooler, the F12 fans never seem to cycle up to high speed so I guess it's doing it's job. I should probably add that I haven't stressed the notebook very much in the two weeks that I've had it. It's a pricey unit ($70 from New Egg) but seems well built and full-featured and I'm happy with the purchase. I have used (and still have) several other units of different brands but none of them are large enough to fit my F12 and none of them seem as well-built or as quiet as this one. As for benchmarks, I've never done any and wouldn't know how to!

 

I PM'd you guys some links but for the benefit of others:

1- WebCam Companion® 3 Software Sony eSupport - VPCZ1190X - Software Updates & Drivers

2- Works w/ 64-bit contrary to what pages says: ArcSoft Magic-i™ Visual Effects Software Sony eSupport - VGN-Z690 - Software Updates & Drivers

 

but do you guys have any test in temperature from idle and load?
cause from what i know the cyro lx fans are placed at the very top of the cooler while our intakes/vents are at the very bottom of our laptop so the overall vents dont really line up

 

I ran some in my Costa Rican F lab with this DIY cooler made with 2 sticks & a desktop fan found in my bodega + a piece of tape & an empty Tic Tac mint box. Fan speed is controlled via a small switchable voltage AC/DC adapter: 4.5, 6, 9 or 12v. Are you interested in the benchmarks?

 

Alright, Crucial C300 popped in, clean install from recovery discs, hand-timed boot in 30 seconds with 7 startup programs. Vaio Care says 28-29 seconds.

Ran CrystalDisk 3.0, very happy except for the 4K random reads and writes, which was a lot slower then shown in reviews.



Loving the power and speed so far. But it's only hours old in this incarnation. 28-30% RAM taken up with 4GB. This is more powerful then my desktop (Q6600)!

 

Costa Rica rain forest chic! DIY style. Bring the benchmarks on.

 

Hooray, my CTO shipped today! Hopefully I can get it by Monday or Tuesday and get started on replacing the basic HDD with my Momentus XT 500GB.

 

my god joe you always seem to impress me.
oh im interested

 

My Hitachi 500GB/7200RPM HDD has arrived. I was able to install my recovery partition onto it and have it recognized by VAIO Care. Yay! Now, just waiting for my HDD caddy. Should have been here by now, since the other thing I ordered from Hong Kong has already arrived.

@Joe & @lundstrom.emil, I ran HD Tune on the HDD in normal mode while in the enclosure and got the curve that my Seagate never gets.

 

It is then the modified drives from Sony that makes HD time go nutes. XD would give you rep if I could.

 

No because your rates where higher in Safe Mode as well as on an other computer.

And you are going to study to be a doctor you said?

 

We're not addressing the rates themselves. We're addressing the flat portion of the curve, which my Seagate demonstrates in Normal Mode and my Hitachi does not. The Seagate has had these results while having the OS on it and not, and while in the laptop and externally.

 

anseio's Seagate in eSATA enclosure connected to his Vaio_F11 vs. mine in eSATA enclosure connected to my_F11:



More cross configurations benchmarks to come tomorrow night.

 

Thanks a million Joe,

My F has now all the software I want after the clean install.

With the link to the Hardware Diagnostics you sent me Vaio Care is now fully functional again. Sony eSupport - VPCF126FM/B - Software Updates & Drivers

I customized the OEM Info on the systems page with the help of the following link: Add Customized Strings (OEM Information) in System Properties Dialog Box of Windows Vista and 7 - Tweaking with Vishal

I looks now better than original and like an US F see also this thread: http://forum.notebookreview.com/sony/482155-need-f-series-screen-shot.html

Now an extremely happy F-owner

 

Why is it higher on my other computers, when EVERYTHING IS THE SAME; OS, SOFTWARE, MS DRIVERS, ONLY HARDWARE DIFFERS?

It is the modified drive in combination of F12, as Sony Design Team Sad to me: It was designed this way.

Your drive is not modified, that is the different. I get the same result as anseio in the same conditions he have tested it in. We do not want to work in Safe Mode, we want to work in Normal Mode as everyone else in the world.

I am going to be a doctor, but I am tired. I will only see my family and friends once peer year in person, I have tons of projects that need to be done, and make my family independent and able to take care of everything. At home I take care of all the computers, and every technical gadget you can find, setting up everything new, have all the settings for every device and 10+ different 8+ characters login and passwords in my head. Everything must be simplified and be able be manage by anyone.

I sleep 4 hour a day and I have started to dream when I am awake.

I am not stupid , at the entry exam I was third best in Stockholm; They wanted the top 5 to be on stage. I only studied english termiology the day before (that was stupid) because I only knew Swedish termiology. And I will be the one of the 10% that passes the first year at the University.